I hate moments when I don’t have a single piece of technology on me because it sets my mind wandering. With either my phone or my iPod around, it somehow keeps me sane because I don’t start thinking about what I’m not supposed to; like why my fingers look like they belong to a guy or why my eyes are not properly aligned or perhaps things that have happened way back, thinking of how I could’ve done things better. I say to people “I don’t live for regrets” but deep down inside, I know every mortal does have that emotion – even if they refuse to say so. My stomach churns every time I see things that remind me of the past. I’m not a person who likes to live in the past because I only like to move forward and not get weighed down with nonsensical bullshit. Like that 12 Stones’ song, It Was You for instance. A guy sent me that song and like every other stupid teenage girl, I assumed it was for me because we were almost together. But he left ever so abruptly, this day, a year ago. No, he didn’t die, things just happened the way it did. Nobody knows but the pain still lives to this very day. If I see him around town or somewhere, I’d probably break down. But then again, I have my pride. Maybe I shall just walk past him like any stranger would. That song, I still do listen to it because we all like to hold on to a time when we were genuinely happy, don’t we?
